Salvia Divinorum

I have been hearing about salvia for a while. I've only tried weed three times but it was a hit or so and thats it every time I smoked. I am a hookah nut though, but that's really nothing to mention. Anyway.

So one day I was bored, and I remembered that scene on Zoolander were they started tripping from a certain tea. Pretty cool huh? Well I did an internet search and I found a site for Salvia. I read about it and I ordered some. It came in the mail and my step-dad and I tried it. We made some of it into tea and nothing happened accept that we both got very tired. It was kinda dumb and it tasted like crap. Very nasty. So we concluded that it was just hype and we forgot about it.

About six months later I was getting curious about it again. I wrote to the web site about my experience and they said to smoke it like you would smoke weed. So, I ordered some. I didn't even mess with the 10x that was advised because I thought it wouldn't do anything. So I ordered the 20x. I received it in the mail. I bought a glass pipe.

That night I packed a bowl. I cleared it. I was outside at night by myself. I held the smoke in for 30 seconds. Nothing really happened so I was going to take in another hit and half way through the hit everything just blacked out.

I guess I dropped my pipe because I picked it up later once I realized it wasn't in my hand. i started looking around and although no-one was there with me. I felt that there were a ton of people around me. I felt like my family, alive and dead, were all around me.

I couldn't really see them very clearly. I could just hear there presence. Very weird. then I felt like I was in front of my house on the farm that I grew up on when I was a kid. My mom was on the porch of the farm house and she was calling me and she was asking me if I was alright. I remember being able to feel what was going on around me. I felt the normal feelings of walking around I was just not seeing what was really there. I then realized that the pipe I had was not in my hand. So I got on the ground and tried to feel around for it on the ground. I couldn't see anything that was REALLY there. All I saw were pixels of black and dark blue. up was down. Down was up. right was left and left was right. Everything was all messed up accept what I could feel with my hands and body. There was no sense of time either.

So then I tried it again about a week later. I went outside and sat in a lawn chair. I did the same thing. I held in the first hit about 45 seconds. Then instead of going blank I remembered what happened last time but I had forgotten. So weird, but it also happened again. I was talking to someone in front of my old farm house. I think it was my mom again. Then mid sentence reality started rolling up like a scroll. I was confused but then everything started to not matter at all. My job, My girlfriend, my car, my guitar, the bug on the ground, the world trade center.....etc. It was all being rolled up into a 2D scroll. My mom was warping with the scroll and her voice started slowing like a record player that just got unplugged but was allowed to keep putting out sound for a few seconds. I then wanted to get away form this thing that was ending everything. It felt like God was done with everything and he was wrapping it all up. It was something that I couldn't help from happening. Then I grew and the scroll was shrinking and I could still see everything inside but I wasn't getting wrapped up in it. I was holding it back from rolling me up in it. I grabbed onto the edges. I could feel the edges with my hands. When I grabbed onto the edges I looked around and I could see nothing but darkness and stars. This was so real. This vision was my reality. When I came to I looked around were I was feeling he edges and there was nothing there so it was all in my head. I couldn't tell I was anywhere else. I couldn't feel my mouth either. I felt like I couldn't breath but I could after I reminded myself to breath. Then It started to fade away as I found myself walking around in my back yard. For some reason I can't hold still when ever I do this. I can't just relax and stay put in my chair or in a sitting position.

I can't say this all felt very good. It's not cool when all the goals and plans you have and everyone you care about gets put into a scroll that is going to be put on a shelf on some gods library. That's what it felt like. It kinda scared me. I'm going to do this again but I think I'm going to do it in some other place. And I'm not going to do it in the dark anymore.

I think that the thing I learned from this was that everything really is an illusion. It showed me that everything really is very temporary. We are are all one. This is what I've been studying lately and instead of intellectually knowing it I actually felt it. Who knows what's on the other side of reality.