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My Salvia trip
by Desiree
I have tried salvia twice in my life, the first time I smoked coconut salvia. I don't know how strong it was but I just felt light, and laughed, and it was only good for maybe 7 minutes. That was in grade 9. In grade 12, I was good friends with a girl (lets call her W) who wanted to try it for her first time, and our friend (call him O) had some to share. We went over to O's house after school, and he packed a bubbler bowl of 20x salvia. W wanted either me or O go first and he did, and I took a hit right after.
I held it in for around 20 seconds, and exhaled. I didn't think salvia was much of anything at that point and kind of laughed at the fact that it didn't hit me right away. We were outside on his back porch at around 4pm, and O waited before taking a hit. I spoke the words "how long does this take?" or something upon the lines of that and then O replied "just wait for it". A split second before he finished that sentance everything turned a different colour. I believe it was pinkish purple, green and yellow, and everything looked strange. I felt my eyes widen and I think I said something about it hitting me and me not making any sense (I didn't know how to speak).
Suddenly I'm falling down what seems to be a curtain rod. And I'm attached by the feet to this curtain rod and several versions of myself are all around me. I see scenes flashing before me. It seemed like it's my life story but a lot of the things did not actually happen to me. O and W transformed into different people I have known in my life. And suddenly everything was working together all at once. I completely and entirely felt the intense terror of deja-vu, and realised I had just woken up from a dream. The dream was my life. And I've done been to this real world before. All these versions of me, hanging next to me and falling on me were all the chances I got in life to live as me. And I forget the one rule, don't fall out to the other side. When I smoked this salvia it brought me to the one place I feared most at that point in time and all my memories of this place came back. It was a giant production, everyone working together and synchronizing their movements so we can all spell out these perfect words and this perfect picture for someone. I remember when I fell in here at first I heard loud laughter. Then, many people from my life were repeating "Oh.. Desiree fell down again" in a mocking way. I was the page of a book that someone was flipping, and I needed to get back to my life, back to sanity and the place I loved. I forgot completely about this horrible make believe life that was kept a complete secret from reality. The picture in the dimension was a frozen image of me and my friends. I fell, and I needed O to help me up. All these unknown hands were grabbing for him as well as mine. But everytime the people I am closest to said 'oh... Desiree fell down again' it would cut off right before the sentence finished and start over, me falling over and reaching for his hand, again and kept repeating an inifinite amount of times. I looked at O and I knew for a fact he could not help me out of this other dimension, it was like he knew he was going to get in trouble. He looked at me half apologetic and half paranoid, and I kept reaching out for him to just help me out of here. I know I've had so many chances but I need another one! W is standing behind him looking unsure. Finally, O grabs onto my hand and pulls me out.
The next thing you know it, O did actually pull me out of it. I could now see what was going on around me instead of being completely blind in this other world. I gasped for air and realised I was sitting down a couple feet away from where I blacked out. I remember being SO f'in happy! I couldn't believe it.. all my begging for another chance worked! I was finally out of there. But it was hard to believe this was reality. I felt like I got pulled into one of the universes next to ine, but not the right one. I looked from W to O and back to W and started frantically asking "W don't EVER try this!", "is this a joke?! are you tricking me?!!" and "promise me you are real, I just need you to say that you're real" and they assured me and I finally got a sense of well being. But I also felt quite uneasy. I felt like I had just learnt the secret of life, the answer that everyone wants to know. "Where do we go after we die?" I believe we go somewhere like that. I also felt like everything was meangingless. School, a career, my belongings.. none of it mattered. I understood now how LIFE really works, and I was astonished, confused, and excited as well as having the great sense that I have already been there many times before.
W and O tell me that when I went to that other place, I started walking around, repeating something (I forget what it was) and eventually screaming. W says that I was walking around and then it looked like I was pushed, and fell on the deck. A while later, O was asking if I was alright and eventually got the fact that I needed him to help me up, and he pulled me right out of the other dimension. This trip was the most beautiful and eye opening thing I could have never imagined to happen to me. I continued to think about my experience for days, and felt like I should tell everyone but I feared they would think I'm crazy. O, right after my trip, knew exactly what I was talking about. Belonging to a greater cause and actually becoming another object and going somewhere far away in an amazing place. I was horrified to try this again but it's been 2 months and I would love to do it again. There is this ongoing fear that I will be stuck there forever, but I guess if it happens, it happens.
This substance is not good for certain people. Very hard to handle at first unless you take tiny amounts. And for those who will take big hits and hold it in long, be ready to have your mind blown if you haven't experienced this before. I was shocked to see a lot more people than I thought have had almost the exact same trips, just different in some ways. I love salvia. Ever since that experience I have felt extreme deja-vu and been able to assume things before they happen. I can't explain it, but it feels like I've lived these parts of my life before.