First time

I had NO idea...

Holy shit!!!! Scared to death....I never felt such a degree of dispair - I say dispair but that's only because that's the only way I can describe it, when in fact it was WAY worse. I cant believe it.

Kelly, my girlfriend, had tried some on vacation and brought some back. She offered me some, knowing I would decline but eventually do it. I remember boasting to her about the tons of LSD etc. I had done and wasn't really concerned.... sheeit....

I packed a huge bowl in a water pipe - blew out the hit and took another little quick one to clear it as one does. I don't remember sitting the pipe down. I was instantly someplace else. Not like acid but fucking GONE.........another plane of reality. I saw like a giant conveyor belt? With blocks like blocks of butter? I guess.

I remember being absorbed into this thing and the whole time feeling like something all-powerful (benevolent maybe but not in a loving "God" like way) had taken control of my existence.

I also remember feeling that this was it..... Kelly had tricked me and my life was over and it didnt matter because millions and billions of people had gone before me and they couldnt fight it..... I was just another existence being applied to this conveyor belt with everyone elses. We were all so insignificant it didnt matter. I was being sucked into my own little "butter block", nothing I can do about it so I might as well give up. The feeling of having my soul sucked up was so overpowering I was trying to just quit breathing and get it over with. The feeling my body felt was something I never want to feel again. I could feel every atom being scrutinized. I was pissed that I had gotten tricked and now I was fucked and there was nothing I could do about it.

Kelly said I was talking some weird language and kept diving into her lap. Coming back to reality I was VERY relieved that it wasn't real and I started putting together what was going on - all I could say was "I can't believe what I just saw!" I was horrified but also very happy I wasn't dead......now I just wanted it to end. I still cant believe what I saw to the point that Kelly got pissed off at me for saying it.

I just wanted to sleep afterward. Today I cant really think clear and still have an image of all that in my head. I've been under a lot of stress lately and pretty sure that had a lot to do with it.... really powerful.... all I can say is I had NO idea.

AJ

PS: We figured out that I had WAY too much for a first time and it was very potent - highest you can get I guess....I had just a tad again last night and enjoyed it, I didnt go out and had more of the physical feelings. It was great. Also, I take a lot of pain meds for a back injury and in further research concluded that because salvia floods one of the same receptors that pain meds do, may explain such a vivid and scary experience. It's 2 days and that "soul sucking end of existence" machine I saw I can still see fairly clearly when I close my eyes. On a side note - I had no idea about how powerful this is and actually scoffed at my friend for saying a prayer to the lady beforehand. My second trip I apologized and asked for a better experience and got it. Mind you I didn't fill the bowl this time but still had a pretty healthy dose. My future with salvia is kind of up in the air right now but if I continue to have experiences with it I will be using the resources on this website for further research.